Life has been a rocky road. I lost a lot of my strength when I was with the kid's dad. He had isolated me from family and friends and brainwashed me into thinking that all of the problems in our R were all my fault. Classic abuser tactics that I now cringe everytime I see another woman being treated like I was.
I don't think we know the strengths that we have inside us at times. But if it is what you know you want and need to do to preserve yourself and/or your kids, you find that strength from deep inside.
I hope that you are doing better Alorna. Good advice to lean on others to help you find your strength. Make sure that these are people that you can trust. Sometimes a stranger can help you find yourself, too. I developed a wide network of people to help me when I needed it most, so don't be afraid to ask for help.
