You need support Alorna, much more than what us bunch of faceless strangers can give to you. Do you have any family or friends nearby whom you can confide in?
I think your H needs a wake up call. He obviously has a porn addiction problem that needs to be fixed and is in denial of the fact. Like any other addiction, it is difficult to break off from and the only way to do that is from within. Nobody else can help unless he is motivated to recognise the problem and change. It does not sound like he does and you and your son deserve a better life than what he can offer at this time. Change and leaving is hard but others have done it. Johanna is a good example.
Johanna, it sounds like you have been through a lot and I think it makes a stronger person out of you don't you think?
