Cherry. He's gone, and divorce is looking

[Cherry]

Surfer, I definitely feel like if anything, my not contacting him is a 180. Only me not contacting him equals zero contact at all. I did think that he would contact me or mil just to see how S is, but he doesn't. Nor does he even see him much, that does leave me sad.

Rouky, thank you for that. Sometimes you need a little encouragement and that's what you gave me, thank you.

Coly, I'm not too bad. I've had a pretty busy few days, had a good day with my gf yesterday. Was nice to see her, as I know I can be completely honest about thinks with her,,and she doesn't man bash, or tell me to get over him. She understands me and admires my fight for my m; but most importantly, she knows how to lift my spirits and has me laughing and smiling. Today I've kind of felt the effects of these busy few days, and I'm feeling a tad run down. This evening, I've felt that odd twinge of sadness and kind of missing wh. I'm not at that crying stage, but just a little sad. And I feel sad when S asks me where he is, and I realise he misses his dad too, and there's nothing really I can do about that aside from shower him with love myself.