After that fight the night I was going to leave with my son, I've been afraid that my SO might leave with my son while I'm sleeping. Right now I'm just letting him do his thing...I still don't like it...but I am tired of spending my time thinking and talking about porn...I really feel spent on everything... I'm not a passive/submissive kind of person...and I don't want to be. I feel that that's the only way it can be...right now. I still feel trapped. After all the crying I've done my whole being feels numb. I hope things get better...I'm trying to keep my son away from the negativity when it comes up.
