Phase 2 contd (2)

[Pax_luv]

Ahhhh Cali, Sotto, and Ciluzen... Thank you so much. Your support means the world.

I thought I was getting there with detachment as life was pretty good and I no longer worried about him.... But d@mn this legal process.... It's pulled me right back in. Without my rose colored glasses on, I can see clearly how he is used to manipulating me. Money is his Achilles heel and that's what this d is about right now.

I need to cut these stings asap.... He's not my puppeteer any more. (How sad that I was his puppet for so long)

On my way to get the dog, I blasted happy music and sang along and danced to the radio. I was feeling ok. Then when I pulled up, I noticed that his lawyer friend was visiting. Blehh...So we swapped the dog. Only 3 words were spoken, no eye contact. I looked good because I was on my way out to pick up my girl friend for dinner and drop my doggy off for a play date.

Me and my friend had a great night. came home, had an awful night of sleep... And didn't get out of bed till 11. I'm just finishing my coffee and breakfast and its 12:30! Once I get moving today, I will be cleaning up my apartment, doing laundry, etc. I've been out galing so much that I haven't been home all week! Smells like trash.. I have no groceries, etc. Uch- need to get my act together! I'm like a sloppy teenager.

I've been reading an old external blog... The persons name was mentioned here in the MLC section in past threads, but I don't know if she posted here (?) or if people just referenced her(?). Anyway, she has some insightful posts about the controlling and manipulating MLCer and its been helpful reading it. It's reminding me that this is "normal." I guess I've been fortunate to not have an MlCer who frequently spewed such hatred, so I'm not used to this new development and am having a hard time with it. I've been absorbing all the blows and taking his word as truth and it's been eating at me.

Detach detach detach detach. Protect myself.... And detach some more.

Wishing you all a beautiful day!