I can relate to how porn makes you feel. My H has been into porn since the beginning of our R. He had a slutty poster in his bedroom when he were dating, and I remember asking if he could remove it once we became intimate. Then, I realized that he's exposed to it daily at his work since they recycle magazines and newspaper. He's had porn in his car, on our computer and tv. I always told him how insecure it made me feel and that if he really cared about my feelings, he could give it up. He gave it up for me, or so he'd like me to believe. It's a terrible feeling to wake up and find him watching porn on tv, and scrambling to change the channel.
This addiction definitely had a negative affect on our marriage. Many times, he would wake up, go watch porn, get revved up, and have nonconcentual sex with me.
