Your last couple sentences rang with me as well.

My next Mrs. Trumpet will need to understand the give and take of a healthy relationship. I will need to work on giving of myself as well - I have emotional walls around me now I never had before. Some days I feel that I will never need another female in my life - I will be able to be fully reliant on God, and even though I'm lonely at times, I have ways to make due.


M46, EXWW46
M15 T17
D20, S19, D13
M - Addiction since 1998
W EA/PA #1 2013/2014
W EA #2 June 2015...
BD 1 Big D talk 9/15
BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15
Served D 1/22/16
Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)