Okay, we will say dim then. I obviously need to respond to messages about S, and if I see him, I will be polite. But to be honest, he rarely texts to see how's is, so messages are fa and far between, and I don't initiate any.

The silence from him and lack of seeing him does help me, I fear if I was to see him regularly I would still have have all those loving feeling and torments, whereas in the peace, I can collect myself and concentrate on me and the kids.

Today, I'm having a well deserved girls day. My parents are babysitting for me, so I don't need to worry about S and have a little me time.

Me 26 H 25
M 4
T 5
Baby born 4/14
BD: 1/15
EA: 2/15
PA: 4/15
reconciling: 4/15
ILYBINILWY- 11/15
ILY-1/16
ILYBNILWY 4/16
ILY 6/16
ILYBINILWY 6/16
Baby due 3/17
BD 8/16