Hello dear friends, I am well. I hope this post has found you the same. I have nothing to report and everything. I have let go of my desire for "happy ending" with my wife and our marriage, it is so freeing. I am thankful for each and every moment with my kids. They represent the good of my marriage and I honor it by honoring them.
I have taken what I have learned through this experience and now walk with my eyes open into my future enjoying each moment along the way. I have learned that waiting for your spouse to wake up and come back to you is emotional masturbation. I view my wife now through unfiltered lenses and realize I can not span this chasm alone. If I could, I am fairly certain I do not want to. I am not that man any more. I have seen and experienced to much to blinding race down that rabbit hole.
The best thing you can do for yourself and the marriage is to stop trying to save it. Improve yourself, love your kids and treat all in a kind and compassionate way. Kindness to yourself and others is answer to what to do each moment. You may not save your marriage but you'll save yourself.
Your marriage is not the end of the book, it's the end of a chapter. Turn the page and move on, your story is going to get better. That's all I got for now, I'll be back
