Thank Job. He had his travel bag because he was debating making a 5 hour drive to Boston to hang out with some co-workers (surgeons) at a Spine Conference. Instead he sat in a restaurant by himself in NJ and reflected and somehow feels better. Oh, how I want to ask him what his revelation is. . BUT I am learning. I will not.
Today he was chatty and I think trying to show me he is "feeling better" what ever that means. He took kids to bus and hung out at my daughter's theater class (never did that before). He asked me to help print stuff and help him look for good prices on a flight to Ireland (going for a friends 40th birthday), and shopped all day buying lululemon clothes and new dark black trendy glasses (j crew style). He is now at his weekly hair appointment. I swear, if i ever see the money he is spending I will be naseous. Anyway, the behavior today was nice, but did not seem geniune to me - more like forced.
Rose (and all) As for the sex thing, for him this is an issue, but he has said even more of an issue is that fact that I NEVER tried to be sexy or seduce him. I am a mom of 4 kids ages 9 and under. When I had my twins I had 4 kids aged 3 and under. He cited I never wore sexy night clothes, etc. I actually think I had done this years ago. . . and he made fun of me. Now I just wear sweats. To be perfectly honest, before this BD, I dreaded sex. I not only didn't want to have sex, I didn't even want to want to have sex. I remember watching Oprah and her saying how important it is, and I couldn't understand it. I guess I see it now. Anyway, my point in all this - is that I have tried to offer sex over the past few weeks AND he has denied it twice. So when is the right time and place for that. How can I make myself sexy and desired by him again?
