Hi Molly I had lost the will to live also. I know how hurtful and confusing this is. It's been a few years for me and still obsess over what happened. Today I lost a dear friend and the depression kicked in.
I will be ok and so will you. What I learned is that I needed to be strong, confident, and most of all to kill the fear..
Fear will affect your functioning. It affected mine and at times it still does.
Don't let fear stop you from living.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”