Phase 2 contd (2)

[Pax_luv]

Gosh, again thank you all for the advice and feedback. I am totally panicked. I think Job hit the nail on the head- I know he has sneaky accounting practices and I know he's afraid of risking exposure.

I am going to try to slow down and examine this. I just can't see how I can be the lighthouse when he's doing everything to burn me down.

This morning I ran as hard as I could to let this tension and stress out. I sobbed the whole way. Again, it's like I'm the bad guy in all this! He's so hurt and all I did was mooch off him and he's going to be paying for my "financial burden" on him for the next 28 years. Is this manipulation or is it true??? It's crazy- making.

Then, I saw that h and my lawyer had some email conversations... One where h thought that my lawyer was not being compliant. My lawyer corrected him and I felt BAD that h got the info wrong. How f@ck*d up is that?!! I felt bad for him briefly. This is a messed up dynamic.... Clearly I'm the one who's psychologically messed up when the jerk who's messing with me still gets my sympathy.

The last email was a sob story about how he just wants to close this chapter of his life so he can move on.

Oh poor him!

I don't know DBers. This really is awful.