Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

To be fair I don't have any concrete evidence that there is or was an affair. I do have pretty solid evidence that this most recent trip was not to meet up with OM. There was the EA that started this whole nightmare but she said that ended and I have no evidence to the contrary. I have learned through my IC that I am hyper sensitive to being cheated on because that's what broke up my parents marriage when I was 10. Crazy how things in your youth can screw up your thinking 32 years later. Anyway I am about 7 hrs away from our discernment C session. If we end up working on our M or not I know from all of this that I have a lot of work to do on me and my insecurity issues. I am still trying to stay optimistic about us working it out but as hard as it is to think about now I know I will be ok no matter what.