So is this a good thing? Even though she thinks I am I don't want to intentionally hurt her. And I don't want to do things for spite. As a matter of fact I still don't want ANY of this. My ultimate goal is still to save my marriage. I feel like I've been backed into a corner and for my kids sake I don't have a choice. However, if I can avoid it I don't want to completely burn that bridge. I'm conflicted.
