"I don't believe you can fall out of love just like that since the arguing has stopped I can see him struggling to be intimate with me he has laid on my lap while watching a movie and we've cuddled a few nights haven't actually said I love you but I have a few indicators."
Mind reading on your part. I don't think you notice how much you talk about YOUR feelings in comparison to his. For example, you imply that you think he asks for details too much and makes YOU feel "gross", without REALLY understanding how much he needs to do that. You say you do, but you don't understand the pain of being betrayed like many of us have.
"is he looking to start a new relationship etc, he says no he's not looking for anything serious and they know that so I think he's doing it to hurt me!"
See again you're mindreading and thinking in terms of yourself. He could very well be looking at other women because they haven't hurt him the way you had. He needs something to heal that hurt. Not everything he does is done to affect you. That sounds like more of your ego talking. You don't know.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
