Coly - isn't it funny how anxiety comes from the W/H? Somedays I feel as though I am in fact detaching, others not so much.
Hawker - I'm doing a little better yes. This is one heck of a rollercoaster eh?!
Nygal - I read on a different thread that us newbs are concerned about being the lighthouse. When we should be concerned about us or something. OW has no job. OW was in nursing school with W. They're both preparing for their boards.
what does letting go look like to me? Letting go looks like I can have positive or neutral interactions with W. Validate, not argue or fight, be kind. Not be concerned with what time OW wakes up, or feel weird when OW and W are on the phone in my presence. Not being concerned with what will make W mad. Certainly not letting her mood or emotions affect my well being or emotions. Being content / happy with this separation.
what does moving forward look like to you? Moving forward looks like living life the CheesyT way. Doing and taking care of ME. Only ME. working on my friendships, relationship with family. Learning and practicing patience. Learning which battles are wise to fight, and learning which ones to walk away from. Being strong and confident in the path I am taking. Getting a handle on my anger, letting it roll off my back. Making mistakes but learning a lesson from them, so I can stop repeating the same mistakes. Not settling for less than what I deserve. Focus on what I have, instead of what I lost.
thank you for the questions Coly. Really great food for thought.
On a lighter note, I got an updated map of some work regions from a coworker. I was extremely excited he thought of me and made me a copy to "score points with the finance team". Also, because I love color coding things I ordered a set of 10 highlighters and they finally arrived. I was extremely overjoyed by these two things. It's interesting how a sheet of paper and some highlighters really made me smile / happy. -that's just an example of things that really make cheesyt excited. It doesn't happen too often now but when it does I'm reminded what a simple gal I can be. sometimes
