Yes!!!!! Too many hours awake pondering everything. I can't seem to put my heart on the line this time. I can't seem to find the strength to fight for my marriage as we have been through this before, and I find I do not desire him anymore
Its as if we are just comfortable living like roommates. Five years ago I would have given anything to have him want to make things better. I know I am as much to blame as he is for letting him pull everything away from me without a fight, but after the first 2 times I just could not put my heart on the line again. I don't know if I ever can. He has hugged me and given me little peck kisses, and I feel nothing but friendship. I know I should tell him all this, but I can't bring myself to hurt him that way.
I do know all the sleepless nights you have layed awake, I did that too for years. I hope things get better for you and H.
