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I am feeling much less of a victim Sandi. I'm beginning to miss the marriage and memories more that I miss my W. She's just a completely different person now.

I am a very emotional man and this stems from losing my Mother at 19. I've never recovered from this and suspect this led to a massive fear of abandonment which then switched my role to one of a pursuer.

There's a lot of stuff that I need to do which goes completely against the grain of my core beliefs, and if I'm honest, I worry that leaving my W alone to deal with what ever she needs to deal with will end up in losing her completely - my instinct tells me to fight.

I need to let her go to see if she comes back - I'm beginning to understand that she may never have actually been mine (as the old saying goes).

I welcome the ongoing support and advice and will certainly be sticking around.

I have my 2nd counselling session tonight and then have a parent / teacher conference tomorrow with the W so need to try and keep my cool and stay calm.

Any advice on this would be gratefully appreciated...

Watch this space.