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[ATPeace]

Hi well it has been a little while since I last posted and thought I would update

Trip to Devon went well I ended up talking to my sister about property and she showed me a house that is on the market with land it is an equestrian property and my eldest daughter would love it there.

In the past things have not been so good between my daughter and myself but when I told her that I had been looking at a house with stables and fields she said she would move with me if I purchased this property my eldest son is doing his exams so he would not move straight away but he said he would move once he has finished his exams.

My youngest son he is 12 and he said that he would like to live here with mummy and come and visit me lots and my wife said that she would have the toddler as I would be working during the days times (daughter could go to nursery and will soon be going to school)

So where I was looking for the house is about Two hundred miles away from where we currently live about a three or four hour drive my wife was not happy that it is so far and she once again made me feel like crap.

First she said to me why did I lie to her I said what did she mean ...she said when you were in Devon I said to you are you doing anything nice today and you said no ...when you were looking at the house....so because I did not tell her I was looking at a house this is me lying to her

Then she was crying because I am trying to split up the family really deviding them she knows I hate seeing her crying, she knows how to press my buttons.

So they say focus on me and my children I don't want just the big kids living with me I want to live as a family so I go to court and fight for the younger kids if I win and get the kids this would totally destroy her ...her kids are everything to her
She has said in the past that she would not want to live if I got the kids.

Has anyone split up and put two hundred miles of distance between you and your ex does this work I would have thought that over the pond when people split up they move from state to state .

I am still seeing a councillor still spinning but not as much it is baby steps for me

I understand so much more about relationships and just how fragile they are and that when you think you have control you really don't .

My mindset is shifting

Pigpen ....my friend thank you I need this sometimes

I am ok ...and I will be ok

Ghost