ok, I just had an awful night. it's 1:15am and my W just got home from her dinner with this guy. I. couldnt sleep, so I'm awake when she comes in. I don't ask her anything, and she just asks about our S. I think she expected me to ask her about tonight, but I didn't, but I wanted to.

however, unless she told me they had dinner then wild sex in this guy's hotel, I wouldn't have believed her, so what's the point? I'm [censored] hurt right now, and I feel like a rug being given walked onot, but I'm going to GAL myself, and try my damndest to not gt wrapped up in her. she's pissed me off, and I have anger built up.

I need to make sure I'm ok in the morning too, not blow up or anything like that.

I guess the only good thing is I'm pretty sure this guy lives out of town, and he's married too, so this may not be an open thing.

j20a that KS for the words again. I guess I felt there was good stuff going on with us, and I tried to go too fast. I think I get it now, and I'm going to work on it, but fook me it's hard.

good night all

M 40 W 40
S 2.5
Together 13 years
Married 11 years
BD: 09/23/16
PA, then long Distance EA confirmed 9/30/16
Exposed A to OM's W 10/7/16
A ended 10/10/16