Blu, you must do what is right for you and your sitch. If it means stepping away from this forum in order to help you in rebuilding your M then you must do that.

However I for one will miss you terribly. I value your no nonsense advice and 2x4s and this is what I need to get myself thinking more clearly. You made me realise that family time was benefiting H more than me so I put a stop to it and I feel much better for it. With the help of you and Job I have managed to stay dark for nearly six weeks (except for birthday message) and I know it doesn't seem like it but I do feel better for it. I realised that contact was adding to my stress and anxiety which has started to effect me physically.

I am really sad to hear that you are struggling with forgiveness at the moment. I sometimes wonder if I would ever be able to forgive H even if we don't reconcile so I can see how hard this must be for you. You have suffered the ultimate betrayal and that can't be easy to leave in the past.

Blu, I really appreciate your honesty about your sitch and its this honesty that we need on this forum but if it means it's holding you back then you must do what's right for you and your family. (((Blu)))


Me - 47
H - 45
D-16
M - 6 years
Separated - May 16

Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')