Hanging on and hoping for the best

[BillyHo]

My weekend away with the boys went off without a hitch. We had a great time. Lots of swimming, site seeing, and just spending quality time together. The boys thanked me several times for taking them for the mini getaway. This was the best I've felt in the last 5 months. This has helped me realize that I really need to put a lot of my energy into my sons. I won't say that I didn't think about the W at all but I can say the thoughts were shorter in duration.

Tomorrow I have a session with IC then W gets back from her trip around 8pm. I am going to do my best to keep my distance and act "as if" when we are around each other. We go for our 3rd discernment C session on Wednesday. The C seems to be trying to push my W in the direction of 6 months of MC. I believe the C sees that our issues aren't anything that can't be worked through its just a matter of getting my W to accept that.

Starting today I erased all the social media apps from my phone that I would obsessively check to see what my wife was liking or posting. Just like snooping it only made me try to mind read and figure out what she is thinking. I am hoping by doing this it will help me to better detach.