I have been married over 40 yrs now. It has been rocky the whole time. Three times I filed for divorce but withdrew before it was final. Four years ago my husband retained an attorney but never served me. He kept the attorney on retainer and the end of this September he filed. I am ready to own my part in my marriage's failure. I was angry most of the time and greatly resented the inequities in our relationship and control over money. I was very passive aggressive when dealing with him. I feel there is little or no hope to save our marriage at this point. I'm not even sure I would want to try anymore. I feel strong most of the time but then a great sadness floods over me. Just hoping for some support. I have followed this forum before and have read Sandy's rules and am trying to use them. I read divorce busting but will reread it.
