Hi Juju, Yes I agree that it feels bad but how many men lust after other women? Isn't it typical in 50% of the cases that they at least desire that?
I agree that I deserve more. I told him that tonight. I deserve more - everyone does. I'm not special. It's basic stuff that people deserve.
But we have two children together, 16 years and so much together. It's tough. Well no one ever said it would be easy.
I don't expect a perfect relationship. I just insist on certain minimums. And he was saying before I shared all my feelings in therapy that he thought he might chose to be with just me. I said "You can't complain about doing all the work when you're messaging women." Then he said I was spying. I said I'm not spying but you just admitted to messaging women. I said that his camping was hurtful and he's never acknowledged that that would be hurtful nor promised that he wouldn't do it again. I really laid into him in therapy and he said he felt bushwacked and that the therapist had orchestrated that whole thing and he didn't like him anymore. I said well you bushwack me every week. I can't tell you how exhausted I am. I work full time. Me or the girls make dinner at night. We are currently painting the whole house exterior by ourselves and more for home insurance reasons. I don't know how we're going to do the second floor. : (
