Still hanging on ... just

[Oluwa]

So assume it is also ok to post journal entries of events that are happening, to keep track and maybe give people some insight into how my MR is infolding.

So I slept in the MBR last night (normally only do on Friday and Saturday nights, cause of her sleeping early for work). No cuddles from her, but thats ok. Alarm went off at 7am as we were planning a Parkrun (5km Race) at the local park. I asked if she was doing it, she said yes. I got up to pack her and my running stuff.

We went and did the run, I finish before her and waited for her to finish. She didnt run a good time for her (either did I), but she was happy at the end of the race. We drove home and she made coffee for both of us after showering.

I had to go out to take D14 to acting in the city, so will be out of house for 4 hours or so. I dropped her and then went to shops to get some more halloween stuff. We are still going ahead with a Halloween party at our house that I suggested we do. I've never suggested a party in the 17 years we've been together. I have been organizing it all and she has not been involved. This is a big turnaround as she would normally organize and just delegate a few things for me to do. She even said today, have you got the numbers of people coming so I know how much food to buy. She said its your party so you need to do that as well. I said I thought it was our party and she said well your responsible for organizing it. Fair enough, I didn't comment, and I did want to do it.

I have lots of games planned and will be the main host for the party, so again should be good fun and not something I have done for a long time (only my kids birthdays when they were younger).

When I got back I started to do the back garden etc so it looks reasonable for the party. We had a few chats/interactions through the day, mainly housework and her talking about work a little bit.

She cleaned the showers today, a big clean, and normally I would do it, but as she was going to do it I was about to say "Hey I can do that!", but I decided to not offer, since that is my normal behaviour and I have noticed that sometimes she gets annoyed when I offer to do everything. She has said "your trying too hard sometimes".

After dinner, she says she is going to sit in the SPA and relax for an hour or two and then myself, her and S12 can watch soccer together. I was so keen to say, "Can I join you?", but managed to resist as I am sure it wouldn't have gone down well.

As she was preparing the SPA, she asked if she could use one of the Bath Salts I got for Fathers Day, I said sure. Its one of those fizzing ones and she asked if I wanted to see what it does in the SPA. She called S12 as well to look.

After that I left her to it, finsihed up the kitchen and am now sitting outside in the cool evening air with a cup of herbal tea and writing all this up.

So, the usual pleasant day with her, as long as not R is mentioned.
I am pleased that I didn't say anything about the SPA, just left her to it and came outside to enjoy myself on my own.