Just doing a bit of journaling. Had a lazy morning as been up really early all this week for work and I'm axhausted. About to head of to the gym and then do a biit of food shopping for tomorrow's lunch with parents. D is still lounging in bed but that's teenagers for you!
I bought myself a dslr camera last year so I've been looking for some photography courses in the area and saw that I missed an evening course which stared in September at the local college - rubbish! I'll have another look around but I would really like to learn how to use it properly and it will get me out and about!
I also need to buy some more clothes for work. My trousers are literally hanging of me and if I use a belt I have to pull it in so much it looks ridiculous! I'm starting to worry that my anxiety is affecting my health as I've noticed my hair is falling out in big clumps when I wash it. Not sure if this is also to do with my appetite being up and down to. Some days I get by with only a sandwich and a piece of fruit if that.
Sometimes looking at gal activities makes me sad as it reminds me of the sitch but I know I need to do this as D is getting older and already the time she wants to spend with me is dwindling. I need to also think about all the vacation time I get from work and how I am going to spend it (25 days a year). I've never gone on holiday on my own and I hope I never have to but I have to accept that this might be a possibility as I don't want to keep imposing myself on friends and family. Although this might be acedemic as I won't have the funds go on very many holidays anyway!
Looking forward to seeing my three year old twin niece and nephew tonight as I am sitting for them. I will also get fed by my sister so that's a bonus!
Anyway need to get my sorry body out of the house before I get too comfortable!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
