Oh and Hopful, I apologize for the conflict that someone has going on here. Bottom line is that I know you're looking for a ray of hope that the direction you're taking is the right one. Personally I think it is, and I can recount a number of success stories. Only you can get yourself out of the funk you're in, and we can attest that fighting for your M is a good thing.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.