It's not your shortcomings of being a man. It's just that you had gotten used to sharing things with your W when in a M. That's the way it should be. But now things are different. You're no longer in that mindset. It takes some getting used to again.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.