Thanks Hawho. I appreciate your insight. In all honesty I am not close to leaving him. But I just keep asking myself "why not"? Because I love him. "Why" . He is verbally and phsyically abusive. For my kids? Yes. He is a good dad to them, but what kind of role model am I? I have lived with him 16 years, married 10. Even when times were good, he was very selfish. But I thought I was a good wife putting his needs ahead of mine. Now I just feel like I was a door mat and allowing myself to be more of a door mat.
I am trying to be introspective. Signed up today for a Brene' Brown class. Guess I lost myself along the way. I will find what I can change for me.
