I am so tired I want to throw up. I just want to stop everything and have fun with my kids. My D13 is in full hateful mode again and I don't know how to manage the near-constant disrespect. My work is constant stress. I'm working 60+ hours a week and my family life is coming apart. I have no recovery time. I'm so tired, a weekend isn't enough anymore to refresh me because I just use it to catch up on the home stuff that's behind. I get almost no exercise and not nearly enough sleep and next to no relaxation and I've put on 15 pounds.
I don't see how I can live like this for the next ten years. But I don't know how else to get to a place where I will be self-supporting when the support is gone. I am so tired. So little of what I used to do to refresh myself is available to me. I had hoped to go to a spa-like thing on Friday evening but my director put another appointment on my calendar late that afternoon so that used up the time I had hoped to set aside for that. I'm spending basically all day at the kids' karate tournament even though it's their dad's weekend with him.
I am so tired. SO TIRED. I don't know how to cope right now.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
