Hi lt - I hope it's ok that I jumped in here. Just wanted to throw you some support. Here's the thing. From what I am reading the in-house sep is your biggest obstacle. I did it. It's so hard. Any problem she has with you is multiplied 10 times over. And you are seeing way too much of her and really hanging on every interaction you have with her. It is holding you back from working on yourself, becoming more attractive, giving her true space and GAL. This is not any fault of yours but I think it is what is draining you so much. It's throwing the situation in your face constantly and hence your thoughts are always about the R.
I was there. It is the absolute worst. The day my XW moved out was unreal. I had dreaded it. But the minute she closed the door behind her the entire house decompressed. All the mental and emotional drain started to heal. It was at that point that I started to slowly but surely become the person I wanted to be. It removed the biggest obstacle in the way.
It sounds like you are working on S but in the meantime can you put more space between the two of you?
I know this is an incredibly tiring and draining process. But keep working on you. That's what counts right now. Your future starts from there. Start working on being the attractive version of lt that you want to be. You can handle this.
Strength and Honor
Mules
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.
