Cherry. He's gone, but the drama has not

[Cherry]

Grl, thanks for the continued support. This really is so difficult, the not knowing and constant feelingbim getting nowhere is worrying me. When he reached out to her yesterday I sent her some links so then she knew exactly what to say and what not to say. Some about validation and some advising on how to speak to a suicidal person. You're absolutely right, the question of his safety is paramount right now. After mil saw him, he was just dropping her off and she said to come inside and see S. He came in, looked so gaunt and depressed and generally drained of life. I asked if he was ok, he kinda nodded and said "I won't do anything". He then mentioned something in passing to mil about not having any milk or groceries in .. isn't this a staple for someone setting up a home. He then proceeded to ask if we had envelopes in (he told me the other day of his plans and said we would receive a letter explaining why he did it). She quizzed him on this and he said he needed to send papers off to update addresses. Possibly I'm over analysing. But I can't take his word and he is seemingly depressed. He didn't say much to mil, he didn't say or answer why he wanted to see her and her alone. He said to her he wasn't going to do anything, but I don't know if he is trying to throw us off. He said he does feel very depressed but does not want to seek treatment. His work has also gone downhill and he's got some severe yelling S off to "sort himself out" from his boss. He is very proud and professional, he doesn't let anything get in the way. I've contacted more of the emergency mental health teams tonight and I pray someone can help. He already looks at me as though he hates me, he will hate me even more for this, but I'd rather have him alive.