I guess I wish I wouldn't let his actions impact me. But they do. I am so deeply hurt and sad. My happiness is my family. This is what I live for. This is what I am proud of. Going for a run, getting my hair done, going out with friends are all fine and can be a distraction - but they are the source of true inner happiness. I don't know how to find it when my family is falling apart. I just sit here and cry and cry and cry.
