nothing new to report. I've been really busy. I had an extremely busy weekend I have a busy weekend coming up as well.
We have some busy days at work, we have a corporate sales meeting for next fall and we have people from the company all over the world. (and basically that means we have to dress business-like as opposed to our jeans and tee shirts, one minuscule thing to worry about this week) My coworker R is the event planner and she recruited me to help get the breakfast going every day this week. I've been up around 530am getting stuff going then still make it work and put in my 8+ hrs. Pretty sure I passed out at 830pm last night.
W texted me last night. W asked me to get more cat litter since they are out. I asked W if she could swing by to pick it up today or tomorrow since D's Spanish lessons are in my town. There's no need for me drive all the way to her if she's here. W never replied. So there's that.
I was pumping gas this morning and it was cold and cloudy. I could see my breath. I love the cold weather. With that though came the thoughts of Winter life with W and D. I can't imagine spending fall and winter without my W. It's strange. I'm sure I'll manage, as I managed spring and summer without W. But winter...being my favorite time of year might hurt more than summer. I won't have her to cuddle on cold nights, I won't have a fire to start in our home. I won't make my hot chocolate or oatmeal for them. I won’t have them to cook a thanksgiving meal. I won't go Christmas shopping with W for D. Or shopping for W. With the season comes a big loss for me. Certainly a different loss, I'm aware but I can already feel it. I know I won’t feel the loss forever.
I keep on wondering when will I stop feeling the loss? Perhaps once a whole year has passed of me on my own and the memories of my sole life are what I begin to remember?
