Just keep plugging along

[cbtdad]

Nothing crazy to report. Just coming in to update and do a little journaling. It's been a couple weeks since we had the "not so good week"
I really learned a lot from that week and how I took some steps backwards, but it doesn't mean that it's always going to be like that. I really feel that I was becoming co-dependent again. That I wasn't really taking care of me and I was taking on her stress and attitude and turn it in to something really big, which is wasn't.
I got the book "Codependent No More" and started reading.
Nothing really new in the book, but a lot of reminders for me.
I've learned that it is very important for me to read something 15-20 mins a day just to keep my mind working and understanding the person I'm trying to become.
I also had an IC appointment and of course we discussed the things that had happened. I really dug into realizing that know matter what I won't leave until she is done with paramedic school. She will be done in June. I've decided that because that gives us time to work on M as well is it the best choice for son by far.
The last couple weeks have been really good again. Physical contact has returned, but still no sex. That part is getting tougher for me. It's been 6 months. But its something that I am not going to push. She knows my needs and wants and there is no reason to constantly bring it up.
Out 9 year anniversary is next week. I made reservations at a really nice place. I will get flowers for her as well.
We are getting new carpet in the house and she suggested that it should be our anniversary and Christmas gift to each other
Not sure if I will get her something else or not. If I do it will be something small