Here we go again....

[matw]

So today I am extremely depressed and having a hard time... It hit me that I probably won't be married this time next year and I am pissed/hurt/sad/etc... All the normal emotions I suppose. I just really thought that we had an awesome story.. got married the first time.. that didn't work out so we divorce. We remained good friends and parents. We decide we want to get back together and get married again. Now I am having to go through another separation on the way to what I am assuming will be another divorce. I am losing hope everyday that we will ever get back together as husband and wife. Why in the hell did we get married again?? Why are we going to put our boys through this again?? Our D3 won't even remember us being a happy family..


Its eating me up that she is just seeing me as a friend/caretaker/etc...


I need to use this anger to stop being a nice guy and letting her walk all over me. Sorry I just needed to ramble a bit..