I am just trying to get STBX's perspective. Not making a grand gesture. It is clear she does not respect me, if she did, she would have no problem showing me receipts for all the money. So we will keep the agreement as is.
Jim....
I don't think that you are trying to see her perspective as much as you are trying to still try to "fix" the relationship...
Still so much of you doing what she wants, she needs, she asks for...
You are STILL letting her control YOUR life...
Until you can find the strength to stand up, and set the bar, you are always gonna limbo under the bar...
None of this, should be about what the hell she wants right now...
She is f%#%ing another dude, and you are still letting her tell you what you should be doing...
Stop looking and asking her, how and what YOU need to do, to lead yourself...
And she is correct with her above exchange with you, you say one thing, then do something else.
You are all over the map Jim.
When does it stop ???
Stand up for you....
You don't want to be here, 5 years from now, talking about how you F'ed up, and would have done this differently, and being the victim once again...
Stop the cycle...
Lead your family...
Show the boys what a strong, confidant man looks like through adversity...
So I ask you, yet again...
What do YOU want Jim...
Nothing about her, nothing about the kids..
Nothing about what is easier, cause well....F#%$ easy...
