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UOn Thursday I will be away for a week and a half. I intend to not come here during that time. But during the trip will be our 10th wedding anniversary and also the 2 year anniversary of me working towards saving my M. Even without that, the trip could have some triggers but I'll cross those when/if they arise.

For our anniversary I have organised a room and invited everyone who was at our wedding plus some newer friends and those who couldn't make it first time round. I have dug up our cermony and have put everything together to renew our vows. Won't that be a nice surprise for my W.

Only joking. I will take the advice of showing her the potential H I am, but have an inkling that the above may be too much!! When this is all over I may just have to scold her as I have missed 2 great occasions to celebrate us. Our 20th together and now our 10th married.

I have ordered something. Will get a card. Hesitate to have flowers waiting on arrival and may just suggest a restaurant for two. My gift should have arrived by now. Better get here before we leave. Sure it'll be here afterwards if not.

I still fluctuate with my feelings so I am proud of myself to have ordered a gift when I wasn't feeling v like it. Now it feels right to me. I doubt W has organised anything but if she has it will be a nice surprise. I have no expectations (except sex.....yeah right!) And will take it as it comes.

Otherwise I am looking forward to the trip.

Best wishes.