Cadet & Mr Bond - Thank you both for responding & your kind words.
Even though we've been divorced for over two years now, the fact that we recently saw each other and that he seemed remorseful and somewhat interested in reconnecting, made the news all the more confusing and shocking.
Cadet - Thanks for finding the thread to some of my old posts. I really appreciate it & somehow thought they were all lost. At some point I'll read through them, as I'm sure it will help me process things some more.
Mr Bond - Perhaps my ex is still going through his crisis and has moved beyond replay now and into another stage of his crisis with OW? I loved this man and I suppose I still do (and a part of me always will). I don't want him to be unhappy (even if he's with OW) but it sounds like he's still confused.
You asked what I've been up to since D? I have avoided dating for the most part and have only been on very few dates since the divorce. I have not kissed a man in over three years now. :-( Because I was afraid of getting close and getting hurt, I always searched and inevitably found something wrong with the man (regardless of how insignificant it was) within the first 1-2 dates...which led me to stop dating the man.
I suppose finding out my husband has remarried will help me to finally heal more and get more closure, so I can truly move on and be more open to a real relationship in the future.
While I believe that everything happens for a reason and know that everything will eventually work out for the best, my heart is feeling heavy this evening with this new-found news.
So, I'm going to give myself at least today to grieve a bit and feel the pain/emotions of it all.
