I’m also trying to find the ways to cut it loose. Apparently, I’m not as courageous as other people are. And H is not doing anything to end it, which would probably be devastating for me at first, but then it would be all done… How do I find a courage and energy to do it myself? I think at this point I would be ok with him initiating a D process, I would go along and do whatever is necessary to bring this to an end and protect myself at the same time.
Sometimes I want to do something very drastic to provoke H to start the D process. But… for some reason I just cannot bring myself to initiate this on my own. I know, my friends would call me a weak person…
I certainly wouldn't call you a weak person, Bright. Anyone who has made it as far as you have has to be plenty strong!
It seems H is quite content with the status quo. I'm guessing you could do or say just about anything and he's not going anywhere. This is why I wanted you to try flirting with him back when he sent you the lipstick case.
Maybe it's time to try something new. Rock the boat a bit just to see what happens. What's he gonna do?
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
