HaWho - thank you. I really feel like you "get" what I am going through. How do you not just throw in the towel? Kick him out? Threaten divorce? This seems like it has been going on and on forever. I don't want it to be this way. I love him and I don't want my marriage to end, but now after the BD I am stuck with a sham of a marriage, faking happiness with my husband in social situations (or not going to events at all). Where is the light at the end of the tunnel? Why do we stick and not run? Are we crazy?
