Budding

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Ok V let me try again.

Body-I am happy with my body and the things it can do when I push myself. I will continue my walks, making time in the morning to get moving. I'll choose active outings over consumption type of outings.

Family: I am the head of the household. I know what is required to keep it running and I hear the needs and desires of my family but I am able to address those desires in ways that work within the needs of the household. Sometimes we will not be happy but we will get through it and make the best of it.

Work: I am doing what I love and it is paying the bills. I am spread a little thin but I have options and the challenges I'm facing are helping me carve out a situation that is optimal. I am happy with work right now and I am adjusting things to keep it from interfering with family needs. This might not be a long term situation but it is ideal for now.

Find I know what I need to do to get out of the hole and eventually ahead of the game. I'm at the bottom right now but I can take it one step at a time rather than trying to get to the top immdiately. First step-make a plan for the money I have right now and stick to it. Get through the next two months without accruing more debt.

Social: continue to date casually but don't put dates above friends and family plans. Say yes to every invite that is not a conflict of time or financial plan. When there are no invites reach out to old friends and family to make your own.

Shh-- it is difficult to be a shy extrovert. Someone told me that I probably send off a stay away vibe because I have a hard time keeping casual small talk conversations going. However deep things, heavy things, even politics and religion and big idea things that cause arguments that most people avoid I enjoy and have an easier time with. There is much less awkward silence.

But I will try to pay closer attention to the natural progression of small talk conversations and see if I can hone those skills to make it easier to make new friends.