Here we go again....

[matw]

So here if the email -

First, I want to apologize for a rough week. I know I wasn't being very nice or open. It was a rough week with everything and I am struggling with the kids and not sure why or what to do about it.

Second, I did have fun with you this weekend which is good and bad.

I want to try and explain things from me and I am not sure if it will help or not but I feel like we are always up and down and I just want to try and clear some things up. I know neither of us are looking forward to the changes especially the conversation with the kids but I still haven't changed how I feel about moving out and us.

I do have a lot of fun with you and of course I care about you and your well being both physically and mentally. And I know this may not help you or clear things up for you but I will try. I know we have a lot of fun together and this weekend was fun just joking around and giving each other [censored].I want you to know that I do like that about our time together and that is the best for me. I like you as my friend and I like when we hang out and I know this may not make much sense but I feel like we almost ruin that by being together. Like being together brings out complications, expectations, and things out in each other that we may not like. I know you will always support me and my decisions and I will always support you and your decisions and I don't think that will ever stop and nor will I ever stop.

However, I do know that even though we have fun together it can also be confusing for us and for feelings and what not.

I don't necessarily want to talk about anything right now but I guess what I am trying to say is I value you and our friendship and am struggling to respect you as well as boundaries. I know you want to work on this marriage and keep talking about that but right now I am just trying to work on myself and it's hard to think about both but I do appreciate you and everything your doing.



So my take reading this is that she has lost all respect for me as her husband. She is now considering me just a friend and one that will pretty much do anything for her. The part about working on the marriage and keep talking about that I think comes from the fact I told her if we weren't going to be together than I wasn't going to take care of her financially earlier in the day. Just need some advice and wondering what everybody thinks.