It is time for you to quarantine yourself to a safe place... Read, read and re read and then find some "SAFE" persons to help you practice.
I know it is hard... Mistakes will happen ad have happened to all of us... You are your own worst enemy as you continue to run back into the game in spite of your coaches objections that you are not ready...need more practice...more understanding.
No more focus on the mistake now...jot down the few lessons that you learned from it...then the few actions you will take to avoid doing it again.
Sometimes the best action is to sit still and stop moving.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine