New LBH with WAW/Possibly WW, help Part 2

[nutts]

Bulldog, the W's OM lives 800+ Iles away, so she won't see him out. I'm as sure as I can be that A is over.

journaling:
yesterday, I went to a football game with some friends, my team won, and we had fun. came home, showered, then was waiting on S to wake from nap, so I laid with my W in her bed since she has monitor. we just small talked, nothing big, but the vibe felt good fwiw, not cold or anything.

S woke, and I went to my parents with S, had dinner with them, then went to friends house and played cards. it was a fun night, and I didn't feel sad or down or anything, I felt good.

the W had plans to go out with friends. this morning we talked. I wasn't going to ask about her night, but she asked what we did, so I told her. I asked if they went to anywhere new, she said no, then said, they didn't end up doing much, basically going to a bar, which was mostly dead, then hitting waffle house.

she actually texted me at midnight asking if I was coming home, and I said probably (and I did end up home).

not trying get to read into anything, just noting.

before I left this morning to go running, I did tell her this was hard for me because I do still love u. she just nodded and uh huh, or something. it did the really bother me, but I just wanted to see her reaction.

until next message, good luck everyone with ur life and relationships.