She only wanted 6 things and she could have easily taken them all and she only took 3 things and made no mention of when she would be coming back to get the rest.
She showed up with ow and ow's parents. Both of them.... It was so uncomfortable... And in what world ANYONE thinks that's appropriate....
Honestly her presence and her ow didn't bug me. What bugs me is that I wanted her to take EVERYTHING and she still didn't.
At the end she said "I'm going to go" and before I could filter myself all I said was "good" she glared at me and turned and walked away.
We didn't really interact while she was here. She got her stuff, ow stood outside on the street by the car. She asked me a couple questions and I answered but didn't lift a finger to help her.
After she left my dog ran away because he was trying to get outside and look for her. When I finally got him back he howled non-stop of an hour. He's still walking around the house whining and looking for her. I feel bad for him, he obviously is very attached to her, she has been in his life since he was a puppy so I don't blame him, but it makes me sad.
Seeing her today reinforced that I have no feelings left for her. There's nothing there. I look at her and I don't even see the person that I married anymore. I really do wish the best for her but I'm done, I feel like I can say with clarity that I feel nothing for her. I don't feel angry or sad or whatever else. Sometimes I feel incredulous that she would do something so ridiculous but I also feel that about my friends periodically.
I came to the realization over the past couple of days that I'm truly happy with my life. I love my job, I love my friends, I love my cozy little home, I have things that I'm excited about and looking forward to. And to be honest I've started seeing someone that I really like, she's fully aware of my past and there are no caveats. I'm no longer hoping for R or my M. I'm with her and that's that and I'm happy. It's like I have my own little slice of heaven over here.
W:32 M:26 T:5 yrs M: 3 yr BD: JUN 2016 W Moved out: early JUL 2016 W Filed for D: mid JUL 2016 EA: 06/16? PA: 07/16 Moved in w/ ow: 07/16 D final: 10/16
