Cherry. Filed, moving, spinning..

[Cherry]

Oh guys, you're all so lovely, I appreciate the check ins so much.

We had a good day out, it was good to be away from the house and together as a little family helping one another. Just realised a typo- I did not go to hamlets! I took S to HAMLEYS he played with lots of toys and we picked out some new things and some new books to read at bedtime.

Came home and he was still moving things. S was looking around, checking boxes and saying "what's daddy doing", "where's daddy". Luckily he hadn't had a nap so I took him to my room, he was a bit distressed saying "what's daddy doing" over and over. I sat down and cuddled up to him, we read a book and he curled up to me and fell asleep.

By the time he had woke up, wh had gone. Still a lot of things left here of his, including the divorce papers!! I made dinner and put S to bed. I did get a little teary at one point, I let those out in the bathroom, so nobody saw anything other than a woman who had it together. And I was. After S went to bed I got a nice long bath. Wh came home and just sat in our living room. He didn't say anything to anyone or even see S. After a couple hours he left. And that was that. My doors are locked and bolting- I am now the man of the house. He can't treat this like a drop in centre. Especially as this house was "suffocating ". No more tears though. In bed trying to process and unwind. It's strange, it feels weird that he's gone. But this is our new reality.