I understand your pain and anger. I still feel it. My ex is living his dream life. That's great for him. He went out and got exactly what he wanted. I was angry for while about that. Then I just realized focusing on that made my life more miserable. You'll get there when you get there.
My ex also thinks he's super dad. He's not. But I let him believe what he wants. He's content with his very part time parenting and feels he's doing the best he can, then so be it. has karma hit my ex at all yet? Nope. I'm afraid it's going to come when my daughter realizes he isn't father of the year..... and she's realizing it.... and it will be sad when she gets older, but for her.
I am convinced my ex didn't love me, a friend says otherwise. What I think my ex loved was my loyalty. I am loyal as loyal can be, just like you. There are actually people out there who value the loyalty and appreciate it.
I did not know men cared about marriages until I came to these boards. I often feel sad an angry to see committed men who are walked all over by their wives. before I came here I actually thought guys couldn't give a crap if the woman stayed or left. Only women cared, I thought. I am actually so relieved to see there are men who care about their marriages. All hope is not lost.
Hang in there. Let it out, no one will kick you off the boards:)
