Wow there is a lot of information in that post Feyth, I don't know where to start girl!
Firstly, happy birthday! I wish you all the best sweetie, you are worth it!
I know what you mean about missing the idea of a husband, I was thinking the other day that I'm not sure if I loved H or the idea of H. What if he didn't change, but I had a different version of him in my head?
I don't know if there is anything more you or anyone else could have done, sometime I wonder if it even matters. I know it's hard to not overanalyse, but no useful information can come out of it, so maybe it is a waste of your time?
Good on your team! You must be proud of them xxx
"There's nothing sadder than a conman conning himself"
“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”
