All -- thanks for your thoughts. This is such a lonely process. I've reflected a lot about friendship during this process, and have learned a lot about friendship.

Mules -- eye-opening questions, as usual. What do I see. I can spend an hour talking about this, but to summarize ... Foremost, I hope my kids see a solid, steady, kind and loving father. That's the most important thing to me. For myself, I want to see someone who had the strength to seek what is right, and do what is right. In that regard, I'm a work-in-progress, but I feel good that I'm giving it my all. I will keep thinking about this. Your question is a gift.

2Lady -- I am not a religious person, but I like what you said: "I remind myself that God will judge me for how I treated him." To rise above the dysfunction of the relationship, and to do what you believe is right. Thank you for that comment.

I am in limbo, but every morning I get to wake up and see my kids -- I'm thankful for it. That's what I want right now.


Me: 50, MLC/WW 45
Young kids
Nov 2015: BD1
Apr 2016: BD2
Jan 2017: W filed
Feb 2017: D final